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breakfast conversation

i found out this morning that a friend might be really sick. she won’t find out until additional testing for sure. i feel scared for her. she mentioned that she needs more testing in passing, like pass the salt kind of way. so i didn’t really respond empathetically in reflection to how she seemed to […]

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depression personal

last day

i just had my last day of intensive group therapy.  today i really felt ready to “graduate” the program.  i’m going to miss my group members.  maybe i’ll just go hang out at the program so i could see the group members!  🙂  i didn’t think i could make it through the program but i […]

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depression personal

why not?

the best response to the question “why live?” that i can think of is, “why not?”  it’s all the same isn’t it in someways.  whether i’m dead or alive life goes on for the rest of the world.  i may make a difference for those who know me, i.e., friends and family.  but i guess […]

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depression personal

lost

i’m having a really hard time concentrating today.  i just kept flipping pages of the book i’m presenting for tuesday.  i guess there are good days and there are bad days of concentration.  i’m thinking of just calling it a day and resting for the rest of the night. i have to do jury duty […]

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depression personal

hmmm

i don’t feel too good this morning. i got a great start at 7 am. but then i don’t know what happened! i think i made the mistake of thinking about the meaning of life. it’s rather upsetting to think about the lack of meaning in my life. my intensive group therapy ends in 2 […]