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depression personal

laugh or cry?

sometimes i can’t decide whether i should cry or laugh.  or even to decide whether i want to laugh or cry.  sometimes life presents you with such absurd and unexpected events and circumstances, that you don’t know how to respond. and it’s not so strange now if/when i cry and i’m not in my therapist’s […]

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depression personal

just checking

how un-safe or unstable must a person be to be checked into a hospital i wonder?  last year, i spent thanskgiving in a hospital.  food was good.  i didn’t especially want to spend thanksgiving that way last year and certainly not this year either.  i may not be feeling great but i want to make […]

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depression personal

wishes wishes wishes

i wish i could stay in the air just floating.  i don’t want to feel anything because feelings might be bad and unbearable.  i just want to sleep or somehow be awake without feeling or being aware of feelings.  yes.  yes. as i am alone in the house this week, i plan on sleeping as […]