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gone mad

i’ve gone mad i tell you.  i slept two days pretty much straight through.  how does one do that?  i haven’t written anything since friday morning, which by a writer’s standard feels like an eternity and a day away.  and actually i didn’t even leave the apartment yesterday.  wow.  i feel like i’m waking up […]

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yesterday

i felt so awful yesterday.  i felt physical pain as well as emotional distress.  i didn’t feel that i could move so i couldn’t go exercise as planned.  somehow i managed to go to group therapy.  during group i felt like i was floating, my attention was going in and out, and basically i think […]

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was jesus gay?

for class this week, we’re reading a book by theodore w. jennings, jr. – the man jesus loved. i’ve only read the first hundred pages so far. the argument is mainly based on gospel of john in the first part where the author argues that the disciple whom jesus loves indicates not only that jesus […]

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strangely

for a long time, i felt distant from god and couldn’t pray as i had before. and then when a friend told me last week about her health condition (that she may find out in a week whether she has a limited time to live), i started praying for her and am finding that i […]

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efficacy of prayer

i went to morning prayer this morning.  i am not even sure why i went since i don’t think that god is listening to my prayers.  i prayed for another person and felt really weird about doing that.  i think i’m going through a crisis of some sort spiritually.  nothing makes sense anymore.  i’m not […]