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the other shoe

i’m waiting for the other shoe to drop, so to speak. i’ve been going out with my bf for about 8 months now. and things are fine, more or less. i’m doing a lot better over all. successfully moved and starting to settle into new place in nyc. don’t really miss boston too much. but […]

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depression personal

So sad

I just watched the reader. And as with other movies I have watched recently, I felt really sad, cried and continued to feel sad after watching the movie. Maybe I just feel sad and realize it when I watch a movie that I am sad myself regardless of what is going on in the movie? […]

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depression personal

anniversary

today is a hard day.  one of those days when you wish you could just get to tomorrow as soon as possible.  the past does not dictate the future.  but it sure can contaminate it! i haven’t felt suicidal in about 2 months, but still have overdosed once in the past month.  i’m not sure […]

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sadness is creeping in like a spider under the moonlight

two days ago, as i was driving home with a friend, i told her that i felt like i could cry.  she said, go ahead, cry.  but i couldn’t.  i felt sad.  i felt like i could cry.  but i really couldn’t.  i came home and changed into what i called “moping clothes.”  i crawled […]