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family relationship seoul

so hard to go home

why is it so hard to go home?  i am supposed to fly to korea tomorrow morning.  i don’t want to pack.  i don’t know how i’m going to manage to keep myself busy or sleep for the entire 12-14 hrs of the flight from jfk.  and when i’m there except for 2-3 when my […]

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depression family personal

loving it!

i don’t think i was doing that great for a while.  i didn’t go out to meet people.  i only would leave my room/apartment for therapy and gym.  i stopped going to all church related events.  i was hyberhating.  i want to say i was recharing.  but i don’t think i was.  i was just […]

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family personal

life line

somehow i’m managing to write again.  it’s amazing.  since last night i’m writing and organizing my thoughts.  how is this possible?  wow.  wow.  wow. yesterday was parents day in korea where my parents live.  so i called mom then dad to thank them.  in response they thanked me.  huh?  i guess they were thankful that […]

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family personal

life sucks – sometimes

i just found out that a friend’s mom AND dad are going to get surgery in the next month or so.  could things get worse than that?  i don’t want to find out.  but things couldn’t get much worse, could it?  i spent the past twenty four hours or so with her until she could […]

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family loss personal

in memory

i’m sad to say that there has been a death in our extended family.  extended family is family and the sadness is real. it’s weird being alive. i mean, really it is weird being alive. it’s so weird that the living go on living. what can we do but to go on living? the most […]