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How Hospital Chaplains Try to Keep the Faith

From my personal experience of being a hospital chaplain, I remember how difficult it was when there were back to back, consecutive deaths of few young cancer patients on my unit at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center, the hospital I was chaplain interning. The scale of grief encountered by chaplains in this pandemic is too […]

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faith family god religion work

the work i do

I didn’t know if when it would happen or if it ever would.  It has been really hard to make patient visits.  Then slowly starting this week, I feel more at ease like I did before.  Last Sunday I answered an on call referral to ICU.  I provided pastoral care to a family of actively […]

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depression personal

just checking

how un-safe or unstable must a person be to be checked into a hospital i wonder?  last year, i spent thanskgiving in a hospital.  food was good.  i didn’t especially want to spend thanksgiving that way last year and certainly not this year either.  i may not be feeling great but i want to make […]

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depression

you are fired!

last night i basically fired my therapist.  she was cutting down her hours anyway and wanted me to find a new therapist.  i didn’t take the news very well and felt my world come tumbling down.  i reacted badly and ended up in the hospital, the worst hospital ever where my psychiatrist wanted me to […]

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depression personal religion

final exit

i really think that if i died an early death that jesus would still love me. am i wrong to think so? when this life is so hard, when the pain gets unbearale, i often just want to escape: a final exit. maybe that’s why sleep is so inviting. sleeping allows me to stop life […]