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christianity depression faith personal

roller coaster ride of my life

my last post was written on a good day.  i was able to get out and was motivated to get some work done.  but there is no smooth sailing in my life with depression.  past two weekends, i mostly stayed in my room and stayed inside the apartment (with the exception of last saturday night […]

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depression personal

laugh or cry?

sometimes i can’t decide whether i should cry or laugh.  or even to decide whether i want to laugh or cry.  sometimes life presents you with such absurd and unexpected events and circumstances, that you don’t know how to respond. and it’s not so strange now if/when i cry and i’m not in my therapist’s […]

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personal

update on my friend

my friend thought she had to take meds for a week and get blood work to see if there are abnormal cell growth.  but she realized the other day that she is supposed to take meds for 6 weeks then get blood work done.  she seems quite at peace and not really scared.  i think […]

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depression personal

last day

i just had my last day of intensive group therapy.  today i really felt ready to “graduate” the program.  i’m going to miss my group members.  maybe i’ll just go hang out at the program so i could see the group members!  🙂  i didn’t think i could make it through the program but i […]

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family loss personal

in memory

i’m sad to say that there has been a death in our extended family.  extended family is family and the sadness is real. it’s weird being alive. i mean, really it is weird being alive. it’s so weird that the living go on living. what can we do but to go on living? the most […]