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depression personal

just for the record!

today is not a good day to die.  i haven’t seen my neices and nephews yet.  i haven’t said bye to all the friends who went home for thanskgiving.  i’m supposed to give someone a ride back from the airport on friday night.  must live until then i think.  wouldn’t you agree? i am however […]

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depression personal

laugh or cry?

sometimes i can’t decide whether i should cry or laugh.  or even to decide whether i want to laugh or cry.  sometimes life presents you with such absurd and unexpected events and circumstances, that you don’t know how to respond. and it’s not so strange now if/when i cry and i’m not in my therapist’s […]

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depression personal

facebook replaces sleep

i couldn’t sleep all night.  it’s now 8:30 am, so i’m guessing i won’t be sleeping today.  so i was on the internet all night, well, practically all night.  i was mostly on facebook.  i used to wonder, gosh, what could people possibly do on facebook that could take so much time?  well, now i […]

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christianity faith personal religion theology

gone mad

i’ve gone mad i tell you.  i slept two days pretty much straight through.  how does one do that?  i haven’t written anything since friday morning, which by a writer’s standard feels like an eternity and a day away.  and actually i didn’t even leave the apartment yesterday.  wow.  i feel like i’m waking up […]

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depression personal

target behavior

one of my “target behavior” (an action i’m trying to change) is over sleeping.  and today i target engaged.  i stayed in all day long, well except to go exercise with my sister.  i usually sleep or stay in bed when i don’t feel good.  and today i wasn’t feeling good so i chose to […]